so much hot air

admiring the joy of falling through air, but feeling so far from all that freedom myself today. instead, too much hot air and knots.

it can be said that happiness = 1/|expectations-reality|.

but trying too hard to remodel expectations in anticipation of an unsatisfactory reality is another kind of lie. it probably won't allow disappointment to be avoided, just postponed. better to adjust reality or feel more comfortable with disappointment.