my secret identity

Tomorrow is Meghann's birthday. Today was her birthday party. It was a special kinda party, 'cause she's special kinda people. It was both a vegan potluck and a dress-up-to-reveal-your-secret-identity kinda do. Vincent was wolf-boy, with facial hair artfully glued all over his lovely face. M. was cute as always in a flowery dress, pretty little sandals and her new blonde hair. I decided the best thing to do when arriving at a party where I'd undoubtedly know no-one(ish) would be to show a little flesh. And since my secret identity really is a soccer-playing nudist, I thought I'd dress the part. So I donned my soccer socks, shoes and shorts, took off my shirt and bra, and wrapped myself loosely in Steve's old brown bathrobe. Then I jumped on my bike and sped off to present myself and as much of my breasts as they would bear to the scrutiny of others. They wouldn't bear too much, so I didn't either. But it was good.

Since I got myself somehow onto the topic of scrutiny and humiliation (see link above), I might as well give you this link too. Humiliation - does it have a positive role? Is it more than a useful tool of socialization? Why are domination and submission such compelling stimulants for many (sexually ordinary) people? Maybe that's not a fair question - here it might be the personal power that comes from consenting to / inviting humiliation and turning it into something exciting / powerful). But still - not everyone hates being laughed at - some people seek it out, but others avoid it completely. Is it humiliation if it's enjoyable? I'm thinking, as I write this, that the answer is probably no. Humiliation that is invited/consented to probably isn't humiliation (rather, a form of attention gained; a type of role played). Which leaves me back at the beginning. Is there a positive role for (not-sought-after) humiliation? Or maybe the bigger question is, if humiliation is simply one means to an end, is there good that comes from that end: socialization (for isn't this a form of suppression of a free will)?

You may well be wondering what I'm talking about. Good question. What am I talking about!? Wow. I'm good when I don't feel like doing what it is I'm supposed to be up to. To bed, then, for dreams of exposure and flesh.