rebirths

so there's a camera in my life now. not that there haven't been before. but this time it'll all be different... this time things will work out. i can feel it.

and today i went out into the world, and tentatively pulled the trigger a few times. but i'm only ready to reveal little bits of the nest for now.



even if my fish are dying (damn), i feel inside that little pitty patter of excitement. today, for instance, i decided (unoriginal, but fun) that i should gather cameras and distribute a roll of film each to 20 other professional transformees that they might go out into the world and capture for us little bits of what it means to become somebody new. it's a funny thing, this rebirth. i'm afraid of killing her, though. the unprofessional. i know that birthrequiresdeathrequiresbirthrequiresdeath, but i don't like letting go of ephemeral things, like my pre-professional identity. ah, but these are words for another bloggy page.




tomorrow is une journée de liberté! and a very special adventure awaits me. put the metal to the petal, and a little taste of pain (no shame)...